November 27th, 2009
not thinking
I've sorted out my feelings after this week of very busy days. I pretty lucky that this week is really busy that I dont have th time or any more spare effort to think of anything that will disrupt my current life. I'd realised not thinking of things make me feel alot better.
Not thinking of th mess I've created, Not thinking of the knots lying dead in my heart. Not thinking if everyone around me really like me, Not thinking of the lousy groupings I've got.
Hmmm, Sorry, my group is not lousy, just that th composition makes it less effective. But Im surprised I dont feel anything. I guess I cant. As in one of the group my two really great friends are with me, I cant feel bad just because of the other two that I dont like to work with. If i do, my two great friends will probably feel worse.
For th other group, I dont really feel anything. I just believe that any group will do. Even if they make up with people that I really cant work it. But it's okays for now. As, I needa learn to deal with them, and deal with everyone I meet.
In the scholar speech, there is one thing beside about the class that comes truely from my heart, I will give my very best to uphold th reputation of Singapore Poly, and my course.
Therefore I cannot do anything that ruined this, again. Even Im very low in Emotional Stability, I must control it. If I dont, I will never go far in life in th future.
